Thinking...

I was thinking today as I was driving.. Yes I know multitasking can be dangerous, but I thought I could handle thinking and driving.. I was thinking wow how is it that I am now down to 9 days left in my 30's.. So what am I going to do with these last few days of 30?? Probably nothing out of the ordinary really.. Continue to be thankful to God for giving me life each morning, thanking Him for my kids, my job, friends and family. I will probably help a few people celebrate their birthday's, support my kids sports, spend time with God, my friends and family.
Now I must say when I got ready to turn 30 I was bothered and really down and I am not sure why that was.. I just knew that turning 30 was the end of life as I knew it and I should just like give up.. I was so depressed and full of anxiety over my 30th birthday I could not hardly function.. It was crazy and looking back I think how crazy of me to be like that.. God is so good because usually I go through a bout of depression from Christmas through my birthday especially the 2 weeks before my birthday, due to some self image and self worth or lack there of thoughts that I have carried over from younger years in life where I just really did not feel like I nor my birthday was important, like they would have been better off with a different child.. This year however by the grace and mercy of God I have not gone through this and I am so thankful..

So I guess the next 9 days will fly by and I will soon be 40 and I know lots of things in life will change in my 40's.. I had kids in my 20's, raised kids and graduated 2 kids in my 30's and well in my 40's I will graduate the other 3 and have an empty nest.. I will tell ya that kinda scares me, but more of that later.. Good Night and God Bless